4 years

Today would of been 4 years for me and Jeremy. It's weird that were not even talking and that he wont even  see me on this day that would of been special. I always dreamed we would get engaged and married on this day. What a load of crap. He doesnt even remember and thats so sad. How he already forgot about me and I'm still here writing about him. Moving on is always hard for me cuz I put my heart and soul in it. It breaks my heart and I feel so empty afterwards. It would be easy if I could cut off all ties but we have Jaden and I need a way to get a hold of him. It's so sad to that he doesnt pick up my calls cuz Jaden would like to talk to him on the phone and I always have to tell him dada didnt pick up or that he's sleeping. It's so awful that he doesnt even care to talk to his own kid or even ask about him or know what he did that day. Jaden gets so excited talking to my parents on the phone and even Tim, i wish he could do the same with Jeremy. God, can't wait until..............