fuck today

Yea Yea u can say it. I told u so they u told me he isnt good for me. He's an asshole worthless mean but i never listen. I always say this time will be different hes not that bad. But its never different its always bad gets worst everytime. I dont know what to say anymore. I'm sick of saying the samething everytime. I'm sick of being the one who crys their eyes out. He feels nuthin. Everytime i see him I try to forget to pretend, and it usually works. Until he says he hates me and I make him miserable all the time. It cant be true cuz an hour before he was laughing and having a good time. He just wants to hurt me and he does. It's pointless loving someone like that. Just plain pointless.

Well this is 2008 a disappointment. Hopefully 2009 can make me happy.

Jeremy's

Been at Jeremy's playing rock band 2. We got so tired from it we fell asleep. It was three in the morning when I woke up again. Jaden had found his way to us and slept with his blanket on the floor. Im glad my son is smart enough cuz I was knocked out. He was kinda crabby but its ok. Now im still at his house playing rock band 2 but im doing vocals and my voice is dying and i sound like shit. We ordered pizza too. Im probably gonna be here for new years too.