Jaden's Birthday

Today is Jaden's 3rd birthday and it was very stressful at the beginning. Jaden had fun with the family and it wasn't bad having my whole family at my place. I had so much things to do and then there was all the Jeremy drama too. He doesnt know when to quit sometimes, but neither do I. I'm just sick of his bipolar behavior and all the fighting. Most of the time I fight with him cuz I'm mad at him for something he did, thinking of doing, or said. Though the big reason is cuz he doesnt want to be with me and I think he should suffer like I do cuz of it.  I mean he still wants to have casual sex like I'm some bootycall and that's it. Just has sex with me then leaves. I dont want that, if I did I would do it with someone who doesn't matter to me. It just breaks my heart, but what am i suppose to do about it? I can't keep refusing him then he will start fucking someone else and I dont want that. And i fucking hate that he doesnt even care I'm with other ppl or if I date someone else. Like he's not in love with me anymore that it doesnt hurt him. w/e it all sucks.