My soul is fighting a battle you will never understand

"At the end of the day, it's up to us to choose to focus on what tears us apart or holds us together."

The end has happened and now darkness takes over my heart. You had no faith in my words or me. Crushed my spirit to the the equator of the Earth. Lies were told and promises made to the point i was blinded by love and life. When you took it all away, should I be seeing clearly? 

 Is Love Blinding?

My feelings are still there, visible. I look at the tears running down my face and I know I wasn't faking. 

I did not cheat.

What I say doesn't matter because you will not believe the words my heart speak. To you I am untrue. My being is not trustworthy. My love is not enough or even real. Am i fake?

Do I even exist?

Hurts to know I will not see your face and not hear you speak those three words everyone longs to hear. 

This this goodbye?

I'm afraid not.

"The past is only a story that helps us understand who we are today and who we want to be tomorrow; but never should it be held against us."

Did being angry ever get anyone, anywhere?

"The pathway in life isn't always smooth, u may find obstacles along the way but that don't mean that you must stop and turn around, keep going forward."


Ever since failed relationship with a love that turned sour years ago, I try not to lie. I have slipped up,  ie. February (you can't know) but doesn't mean I can take it. I'm weak in nature and lying too much is something I can't keep up. Being good at lying is not a life goal people strive for but i can't say i don't know people who makes it their life goal.


Trust?


It's a sad day in hell when a love one decides loving you is too much of a bother. I'm unhappy. 


What did being angry ever get anyone, anywhere?


Pink Tacos. 


I am more than just sad, I'm livid. 


I am trustworthy.
Trust me 
I know.


You think this will make you happy? I beg to differ.


"If you don't like something, change it...if you can't change it, change your attitude, don't complain."

Show that coming

Carpe diem sine metu. Latin Proverb meaning "Seize the day without fear."


Life is a truly fucked up thing. You wake up one day and everything is perfect fine and your future set, then slowly it's all taken away from you with two little words.


I thought I had everything but turned out to be empty promises to a promise land i wasn't invited to. My soul is gone, given away to a heartless victim. He swallowed me whole and spat me out and now I'm cold, wet, and alone. 


Why is everyone looking for love?    


I ask myself one thing, why was I so stupid?


Anything worth a damn isn't easy to get; anything easy to get isn't worth a damn.