skanky hello kitty

This is skanky hello kitty. Jeremy got it for me yesterday for my birthday as u know. I love it :)

shitty birthday

what a shitty birthday. oh well didnt expect anything much. Jeremy took me to build a bear and got me a hello kitty bear. Which was nice of him since he never wants to be with me again cuz he's not fucking "happy" with me. Jeremy almost blew me off(cuz i got mad that he said" and that's why i dont tell u anything"), he was mocking me in the car cuz i was naming off states on plates, he comments on how i eat and walk all the time. He cant just leave it alone he has to pick at me. I had to put my headphones on cuz i couldnt take it I would of bitch him out the whole day.  Oh well i cant expect him to ever admit it and it just makes me mad. Im just gonna eat food and watch tv.

Birthday

ITS MY MOTHER FUCKING BIRTHDAY!

its gonna be really boring cuz i will get no gifts and will probably do nuthin possibly not sure yet. Im gonna see tim maybe and Jeremy. Its also his weekend with Jaden.

Publish Post

it just is

tomorrow is my birthday and I see I'm gonna be alone like always while everyone is with everyone else. I don't see much people as it is usually only tim and jeremy.

tim won't talk to me he's to busy being an asshole doing the usual thing he does when we fight. see that katie bitch do w/e he wants with her and everyone else. it makes me sick and hurts my feelings but he doesn't give a shit about me or how I feel.

anyways I have an exam today. which totally sucks so bad. and the fact no more video chats :( also sucks. My computer isn't really working on my iPod right now. I just threw up on myself really ducking gross. I couldn't stop coughing and that's basicly how that happened.

I'm hungry. I'm lonely. I'm hot. my hair is just gross and I'm sick of vomit. I'll be better and so will Jaden. He fell asleep on the couch and I think my bed is safe enough to sleep on.

sick

I'm to fucking sick to do any sort of video blog and I look like shit anyways so that's soooo not happening. I've been sick for like a week it's annoying. but I feel like I'm getting soo hopefully I can do my exams on tuesday and Thursday. Jaden is going to a double birthday party at 5. I'm hungry and trying to eat something that would make me sick or taste like shitty shit shit.

fifth video blog

fourth video blog

Third Video Blog

second video blog

First Video Blog

grrrrrr video blogging

Its not working I cant figure it out. i cant use youtube cuz its saying file fail to small and i cant use blogger cuz video from macjournal doesnt have right format or something and the add video button keeps disappearing. one moment its there and then its done wtf.

Sandi's Birthday video

trying to figure out how to post videos

twitter

Jeremy keep bugging me to join Twitter so i did. I but the widget on my blog so follow me! I dont really get it. Seem weird but hopefully I'll figure it out.

today

Well i am feeling like crap. I was sicky all day with the worst headache. They were working outside at 8 am and it was so loud outside my place then next door cuz i guess my douche neighbors moved. They must really hate me and Jaden. Tim and me have been fighting. He came over and it wasnt so bad until he found out I've been talking to Chris Jones. He freaked out and forbid me to see him talk to him and i had to delete him. He sounded like i do when we talk about that katie skank. He was so paranoid and crazy. He hates him cuz he broke into his house and stole from him. He's also pysch and did a lot of weird shit and been to jail crap like that. Well hes nice to me. He called and texted me while tim was with me and tim freaked so much. He got kind of scary. Then I freaked out cuz he was being a jerk. I was so depressed and mad. I was talking to Jeremy and he is sicky but he still came over to see me cuz he loves me :D. We went to the mall and I got diapers and subway. Then watched Mall Cop then he had to go home :(
I watched Lost and the ending was the best but im not gonna say it cuz Jeremy hasnt seen it yet. See i dont always tell.

:D

Had a great day with Jaden and Jeremy yesterday

never ever again

tim has gone to far. he has been doing shit behind my back and not even seeing me. he didn't get home until 6 am and then I find out he's seeing all these people/ bitches. he's lying saying he's alone or he's not doing anything. WTF!!!! I can't fucking do this shit. he already knows how I feel about her we had many many fights about her but he does this and I'm suppose to be ok with it. we got in a " fight" and then goes off with her and I'm suppose to be to blame. that piece of shit! he fucked up! I'm so pissed off. I just want to kill him. I hate him more than I have in a long time. he has been acting so cold hearted and so distance that everything I say is a fight. he's acting like jeremy use to and sometimes does. I can't even talk to him. I'm so hurt. :(