Can't we just live happily ever after?

"Love knows no reasons, Love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons, Love has no eyes, but Love is not blind, Love sees but doesn't mind."

Some tragedy happens where the woman needs to be saved and the man recused her from evil. I don't see how that can't happen to me. My life is a tragedy; Shakespeare worked his magic on it, where I fell in love just to be left. I don't really think they all ended that way but that's how this tragedy is shaping out to be.

This is No Romeo & Juliet, no Othello, no Midsummer's night dream. This is my life and maybe for once I would like Shakespeare to stop with the this tragedy and just let me find love without taking it away.

A fairytale ending is just that, a fairytale.

"Hatred stirreth up strifes, but love covereth all sins."

My soul is fighting a battle you will never understand

"At the end of the day, it's up to us to choose to focus on what tears us apart or holds us together."

The end has happened and now darkness takes over my heart. You had no faith in my words or me. Crushed my spirit to the the equator of the Earth. Lies were told and promises made to the point i was blinded by love and life. When you took it all away, should I be seeing clearly? 

 Is Love Blinding?

My feelings are still there, visible. I look at the tears running down my face and I know I wasn't faking. 

I did not cheat.

What I say doesn't matter because you will not believe the words my heart speak. To you I am untrue. My being is not trustworthy. My love is not enough or even real. Am i fake?

Do I even exist?

Hurts to know I will not see your face and not hear you speak those three words everyone longs to hear. 

This this goodbye?

I'm afraid not.

"The past is only a story that helps us understand who we are today and who we want to be tomorrow; but never should it be held against us."

Did being angry ever get anyone, anywhere?

"The pathway in life isn't always smooth, u may find obstacles along the way but that don't mean that you must stop and turn around, keep going forward."


Ever since failed relationship with a love that turned sour years ago, I try not to lie. I have slipped up,  ie. February (you can't know) but doesn't mean I can take it. I'm weak in nature and lying too much is something I can't keep up. Being good at lying is not a life goal people strive for but i can't say i don't know people who makes it their life goal.


Trust?


It's a sad day in hell when a love one decides loving you is too much of a bother. I'm unhappy. 


What did being angry ever get anyone, anywhere?


Pink Tacos. 


I am more than just sad, I'm livid. 


I am trustworthy.
Trust me 
I know.


You think this will make you happy? I beg to differ.


"If you don't like something, change it...if you can't change it, change your attitude, don't complain."

Show that coming

Carpe diem sine metu. Latin Proverb meaning "Seize the day without fear."


Life is a truly fucked up thing. You wake up one day and everything is perfect fine and your future set, then slowly it's all taken away from you with two little words.


I thought I had everything but turned out to be empty promises to a promise land i wasn't invited to. My soul is gone, given away to a heartless victim. He swallowed me whole and spat me out and now I'm cold, wet, and alone. 


Why is everyone looking for love?    


I ask myself one thing, why was I so stupid?


Anything worth a damn isn't easy to get; anything easy to get isn't worth a damn.

What Was I Put On Earth For?

"The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you'll go." ~ Dr. Suess

Sometimes things aren't what you hoped for and your at a point in your life where things should be different. I need something more than this, i can't live so little anymore. I may be young but everyone needs to grow up someday, sometime. Can't I ever want more for myself? Apparently not, I can't amount to anything. I will never be somebody. I will never marry anyone. I will never have more kids. I will never have a life I can be proud of. Why am I here? What was I put on Earth for? 

 

I don't understand why I am so not okay with this life.  Nothing good is said about me, I can't even have a decent relationship, and not sure how to be happy. 

"We all make mistakes.  The wise admit and learn from them.  The insecure deny them.  The foolish repeat them.  And the godly forgive them."

50 of the many reasons why i love Shirley Carmona from my boyfriend

1. her smile
2. her eyes and the way they light up for me
3. how happy she makes me
4. the way she teases me
5. how much she misses me when im gone
6. the way she makes me feel when im with her
7. her hair, specially when it gets messy
8. how she wore that school girl outfit for me
9. the way she hugs me and kisses me
10. how she always fits perfectly when we cuddle
‎11. how she loves my cornyness
12. the way she loves my pet name for her (love muffin)
13. the way she cooks for me
14. the way she keeps me fed even when she doesnt
15. how everytime i see her its like the first time everytime
16. how she can make sweatpants and a tshirt with no make up look sexy
17. how much sexier it is when she does dress up
18. her lips
19. the way she will dance around all silly in front of me
20. how well we get along, despite our differences

‎21. the differences we do have
22. how she has watched every episode of dragon ball Z
23. how she loves my guitar playing
24. how she will lounge around in her pjs all day with me
25. her pjs
26. all her hello kitty gear, mainly that hat
27. how she convinced me to get skype
28. the way she always falls asleep on me when we do skype
29. how i leave skype open when i fall asleep and wake up to her being there
30. the way she sings in spanish

‎31. how she says AIII instead of OWE when i bite her
32. DAT ASS
33. how she is who she is, and doesnt apologize to anyone
34. how absolutely adorable she is
35. how she makes me feel so wanted
36. how easy she is to scare
37. how kinky she is
38. how much time she spends on facebook games
39. the way she play fights with me
40. the way she actually fights with me sometimes

‎41. how we started dating
42. how she is still dating me
43. how she loves my beard
44. the way she flirts with me even tho she already has me
45. how we can talk for hours and hours and not get bored
46. how shes a nerd just like me
47. the way she wears my clothes when i leave em there
48. the way she kisses me
49. the way she tells me she loves me
50. how im so fucking in love with her

u are amazing

"well, i love spending time with you, i love your personality, your sense of humor. i love how easy it was for me to feel comfortable with you. i love the way you make me feel, i love the things about you who make you who you are.  yea, i love you, i really do.  at least from all i know about you at this point.  i know it is still really early in our relationship and we really didnt talk to much before that,  but when i tell you i love you i dont feel any regret or doubt about it.  if you mean to ask "am i in love with you"  i will tell you im falling, hard, in love with you.  

i am truely happy to be with you, i feel truely lucky to have the chance."

Aww that's the sweetest thing from my man