Fred

Sometimes Fred pisses me off. He can be really annoying. Though most guys are and more around their friends. I still havent said yes to Fred about being his girlfriend. I wanted him to ask me just so I wouldnt be just a fuck thing to prove Jeremy wrong and now that he has I have to really think about it. I dont want to make a huge mistake. All Jeremy said was guys only want to fuck me they dont want to be with me. That he's the only one who cares about me and not just my body. What fucking crap! I dont even know anything anymore. Tim says Fred really wants to go out with me and he doesn't want me to say no. Though I can't get what Jeremy said out of my head.

Sigh

Delete

I'm deleting Jeremy.
He doesnt exist.

All i want from him are 57 a week(which he bearly pays cuz of all his bills).  To pick up Jaden after work this friday and when Jaden goes back to daycare to pick him up at daycare on his weekend at 4:30. I wish he would see Jaden more or at least call him but he's a lousy everything and I cant expect anything from him. I wanted to marry him, god what a stupid idea. Don't u hate when u fall in love with the asshole?

ignore me

Jeremy is ignoring me and talking to everyone else but me. I hate when he does it, god hes so predictable sometimes. The pattern never breaks with us. Maybe I should shake things up, it will be a mystery.

Oh Jaden broke my charger for my laptop and I can't afford a new one which is like 80 bucks, so im screwed. I'll have to use my ipod and i think i can post through my email.

having a bad day

I wish Jeremy would stay away from girls that im friends with. He just cant ever stay fucking out of it. He acts all nice to them then completly ignore me. It hurts my relationship with them and he doesnt even care. I hate him he always has to ruin everything. Get ur own fucking friends u loser!

ugh

Jaden drove me crazy today.

Jeremy deserves to die

I can never let anything go

I hate when Jeremy talks to my friends

I cant even talk to Jeremy cuz I can't stand him anymore

I dont know why I try anymore cuz he's a nobody

On thursday it will be 4 years of me and Jeremy non-relationship i guess now

Sandi's birthday

Today is Sandi's birthday but her party was last night. It wasnt to bad but since I dont drink I was a little left out and sober with crazy drunk loud people.

 

 

fred

Fred asked me out. confused. need to make pro/con list.