Life isn't so bad right now

I haven't writen a blog in forever cuz I don't know what to say sometimes. Life has been pretty good. I mean there are always ups and downs. Me and Jeremy still fight and shit but it has been getting better. I saw Wolverine last night with him. It had its moments but basicly not so great. Though he looked good :)
Me and Tim have beening out more which is good cuz all he was doing was working like Jeremy. And it's not fun that I can't see anyone cuz they work all day :( 

Still no seeing Fred though he hates it. Even though he seriously asked me to marry him. I'm like wtf Fred u don't want to marry me just stop that right now.

I've been buying  dresses and skirts and more summer type clothing. I didn't really have any summertime dresses u know. I was more into wearing long jeans in the summer and never showing my legs and thats why they were always lighter than my body. Still not wearing short though it did cross my mind, which makes me think i'm losing it.

So hoping things go better with me and Jeremy and stay better. And Tim works but not so much he can't spend time with me, also putting Jeremy on that too. And hopefully me and Fred can stay being friendly and not have it go sour

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I love these surprise wow people on this show

The World is standing still

I think he just wants to break up. why else will he be acting like this everytime and doing it over & over and being so stubborn where I can't even be near him? When I actually need him he's unreachable, nowhere to be seen or he would just leave anyways. I can't stand that. I leave the room upset and in tears so he just walks out the front door no goodbyes to me or Jaden. Like we don't even matter enough. And I go outside asking why he's leaving begging him to stay come back stop being a stubborn asshole over fucking nuthin. What does he do? He just keeps on walking like I'm not even there outside crying trying to get him to stop leaving again. I'm sick of making a fool out of myself for someone who is bearly apart of my life. The way he is with Jaden sometimes pisses me off cuz he's teaching him wrong and getting to say things he shouldn't. Jaden and Jeremy think its funny when it's not.

I don't feel like i'm in a relationship. I don't feel like his girlfriend. He doesn't treat me like i am. He doesn't treat me special. He doesn't call me when he's worried about me or even worries about me. Like two days ago was the nicest thing he has said to me in a long time.
"I love you more than anything in the world. i love who you are and what you look like."

If only he treated me like he loved me more than anything in the world.

I'm just really sad. Everything is falling apart again. He's doing the same old thing again. I see him even less and talk to him even less cuz of his second job. I'm always alone nowadays. Everyone I want to see is to busy or im not allowed to see them.

I just want things to work out again.

My life is a bore

Boring. Haven't done much. I get to go anywhere with Tim anymore cuz he rather work than do anything with me. Fred has been a bit of a drama queen having fits about everything. Hopefully he will stop cuz it's getting annoying and makes me not want to talk to him. But then he says things and does things that are great.
Jeremy didn't pay his phone bill so no texting or caling him. I bearally get to speak to him and when i need to get a hold of him i can't. Plus when I saw him for an hour yesterday it didn't go well. He just leaves even when I beg him to not go. He doesnt have any time for me. And yesterday it seemed like he had somewhere else to be or someone better to see. I always think the worst.
I have no money. I owe 2 months of rent, cable bill, and i can't buy anything for Jaden cuz Jeremy hasn't paid child support in forever.
Jaden keeps going outside but hopefully I get that problem fixed today.

17 again

Just saw 17 Again. It was good put a lot of things to view. Like getting pregnant in High School but I didn't get married. U think if u could do it all over again that u would still end up making the same choice again. Overall in the movie the choice he made in the first place was the best choice. Being with the love of ur life getting married and having a baby at 17 instead of going to college playing college ball and possibly going pro hmmm........

If u went back in time to redo everything would u change it or would u end up doing the samething without even realizing it?

what's it to u

I saw Hannah Montana the movie! I know ur so jealous. I saw it with Tim who wasn't excited like I was. But over all it was a good movie. I'm feeling really shitty having some problems. I have some Easter candy that me and Tim got at Target for 50%.
Tim has informed me that he's working all the rest of the week from 1-6 :(
Not ok. But it's finally my weekend off even though its not really a weekend since Jeremy doesn't get out of work until like 6ish so he can't get Jaden from daycare.
Jeremy still doesn't have his car but says he will get it tomorrow night at least. Hopefully soon we will spend sometime together.
Still not allowed to see Fred :(

Movies that I want to see this month: Fast & Furious, 17 again and Adventureland

Easter

I went to Jeremy's aunts house for Easter shit this year. Wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Jaden like always was a pain sometime. Carly was cute and talking to me about anything that pop into her head at the beginning. We ate, we talk, and we saw a really bad movie :)
Carly and Jaden did can Easter egg hunt and it was fun taking pictures of them looking for eggs that me and Jeremy hid in the front yard. Me and Jeremy didnt really fight so that's a plus.

Tim came over after he got home from Boston. Jaden omg i swear i am on my last nerves with him. Talk to Fred a little bit only. I feel bad he never has any good holidays.

OMG! I'm seeing the Hannah Montana movie today with Timmy. Can't wait. Also Target to get Easter candy for a million percent off.  YAY!