Friday, March 6, 2009

shit

my parents car is acting up and they need someone to pick up Jaden. crap!

Tim didnt tell me about this morons

Amber Liimatainen
March 5 at 3:49pm
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Tim told shirley about the post. If you read up more you would know.
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Rebecca Sanborn
March 5 at 3:50pm
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I can't the shit is too long for my phone:-)
*~*Becka*~*
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Amber Liimatainen
March 5 at 3:50pm
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Ohhh
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Jeremy Lewis
March 5 at 3:51pm
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I'm not friends with tim or shirley so I can't read that stuff.
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Amber Liimatainen
March 5 at 3:52pm
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I'm not friends with either of them. Both shady people if you ask me.
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Nate Malecki
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March 5 at 4:03pm
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Shirley is just a whore. Nothing really shady there. What you see is what you get. Tim is a sketchball and a half though.

Amy Purcell
March 5 at 7:44pm
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hahaha to all of this. Jeremy, did you not see the loooooooong conversation between shirley and my boyfriend on my page a while back? She is a fucking NUTJOB. Whatever though.... she can keep being a hoe, and possibly (if she hasn't already) stop spreading the "gift that keeps on giving"


one of the people who thinks Jeremy is way out of line keeps sending me this. I'm not naming names but it sure isn't tim. morons all of them.  Yea im a whore who has slept with 2 people for like 2 years now and just wants her ex bf but he's a complete asshole. And Jeremy isn't even friends with tim on facebook so why would he send it to him? Amber is a dumb bitch if she thinks that.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

unforgiveable

Do you guys think you could do me a favor, and if your not friends with shirley, please remove her as a friend from your facebook. She goes around adding all my friends so that she can watch what i say to people and most of the time just ends up bitching at me for whatever i say.

If your actually friends with her, then go ahead and keep her if you want, otherwise i would greatly appreciate you guys removing her.

Thank you all,
-Jeremy


Shirley
Between Nate Malecki, Kassy Mimitz, Amber Liimatainen, Rebecca Sanborn, Sun Lew, Adam Bushey, You, Shelly Hallock, John Meehan, Amy Purcell, Amy Taupier and Jeremy Lewis


Amy Taupier------------aww you poor kid

Rebecca Sanborn-----
I'll delete her when i'm actually near a computer:-) tomorrow
*~*Becka*~*


Nate Malecki----lol no skin off my back. I'll delete, mang.
Adam Bushey---------fuck yea :D

Amber Liimatainen----That I'd give you a big "Woot!" for the helll of it. :)
Jeremy Lewis
Somehow she already knows about it and has begun her bitching about this too.
Adam Bushey i kno i saw that ROFL TIM!!!!! DUN DUN DUN
Rebecca Sanborn O

(thanks to the person who send this to me)

This is upsetting. I dont use these people to check up on Jeremy. And I'm not friends with even some of the people he send it to. I started delete some of them already just cuz I cant stand it anymore. It hurts less if I delete them before they delete me. He has really gone to a new low. Now i know he tells these people all this shit about me and thats why they dont like me cuz of his lies and his one sided stories. But to actually tell people to not be friends with me is just hateful and cold. I didnt know he was so ugly inside and had an big enough ego to think that. I'm not bitching but he's a dirtbag for doing this. I really thought deep down he cared about me that if i kept trying he would see that he needs to stop judging me and living in the past cuz im not the same person, im not as horrible as he says.

I already dont have any friends. I put Jeremy above everyone else. I never saw anyone cuz he was around a lot and no one really liked him and i told them that Jeremy was there to stay and they told me i was an idiot for picking him. Now I dont click good with girls and anyone i did Jeremy always messed it up one way or another the friendship ended. I am better with guys but Jeremy didnt want me hanging around guys. It was a fight to keep tim and Jeremy force me to give him up once or twice. And tim would also try to make me choose him or Jeremy. But I couldnt give Jeremy up, i love him more than anything.

It's not all his fault I changed. There was other guys. Guys flirting with me and me too. I changed though and he still thinks i'm that same person. I would give up almost anything to be with him again and that is so sad cuz he doesnt deserve it.

This is the hardest thing that I have to do and it's really breaking my heart and I can bearly see from the tears now.

what i thought when u were talking

look jeremy i dont cause trouble for u ok. i would be nice to u if u could not ruin everything all the time. i cant talk eat do anything without u saying something negative. i dont deserve how u treat me cuz all i ever wanted was u. and i cant ever have it and i hate it and i hate u. if u actually wanted to be with me i wouldn't be what i am right now.  Sometimes I wish I never met u so i wouldn't be so fucking crazy when it comes to u. ur mean and rude and couldn't care less about my feelings. Ur not who i fell in love with and I wish he would come back so I can start being myself again and not some crazy jealous bitch.

The real u is rare to see and when he comes out I try to hold on to him for dear life but is always thrown overboard cuz he has to make everything so hard and himself so impossible to love.

I want so much for everything i say to u to not be turned into a fight or u take as something its not. I bearly get to say anything or try to explain that its not what u think and ur taking it the wrong way. I'm sick of feeling used and helpless.

What's the point of being nice to u? It makes me look weak and makes it hurt more when u tell me u hate me and i make u unhappy and u dont wanna see me. But I'm sick of hearing all i do is bitch at him.

Jaden has a appt in an hour gotta get ready

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

sex and the city

Omg. I just realized my love life is like carrie and Mr. big. That is so sad. Though they get married at the end of the movie after he stands her up and a year goes by. But it's like 10 years in the making.




Randomness: I want a big juciy burger right now!

Monday, March 2, 2009

why am I like this?

Jeremy is at the not talking to me stage again. I dont even know what he's doing. I text him and he didn't answer. And of course I'm at the paranoid stage. ugh.

Stupid snow day. Jaden is very cranky and hungry 24/7.

I havent been to the gym in forever and should probably go tomorrow or something. Though I look like shit and shouldn't be out in public.

There is no food in my house that I would actually eat except candy hmm....problem big problem.

Broke. need to pay bills.buy food. and a million things I cant think of at the moment.

I do need a job. oh well. my rent is just so high and pretty much sucks ass.

Fred wants to see me this week but idk for some reason i'm having second thoughts. But why? I mean Jeremy wants to move on and i'm not important anymore. I mean he can go days weeks without talking or thinking about me. He doesnt wanna hang out include me in his plans or life. I'm a nobody to him, oh i forgot all i am is one of his baby mamas(there will be more).

If we didn't have Jaden together we wouldnt even speak or see each other. I wouldnt be some sex thing instead of being in a real relationship.

ugh why am i thinking this? life sucks seriously.