Damn Jeremy

Mine and Jeremy's non relationship is to focus on sex. Not loving sex but dirty dominating sex. Though I do love it there are times when I want more out of it. I don't feel special or even liked. Role playing shit is fun where I'm a cock whore and need to be punished LOL. I don't even know how to have loving sex, make love.
Sex and Reality are two different things and I don't want my dirty sex life made into a reality where they think I'm actually that. Guys are stupid sometimes. I been with guys who won't call me those names during sex cuz they dot think of me that way so I have some faith.

Sleepover

So umm Jeremy is sleeping over and so far not going so well. He keeps calling me fat, And he came into my room and got way to close to me so i back up and he said " dont flatter urself thinking I came in for u," then picked up his cup. Yeah and he wonders why i call him an ass. He needs a good punch in the balls. We are not talking and he has fallen asleep. I'm so watching desperate housewives season 2 all night my download is almost finished.

jerk bitch slut

Jeremy is bored. nothing to do but clean. 3:21pm

Amber Broussard at 3:27pm January 16

i can change that ;)

Jeremy Lewis at 3:27pm January 16

(^_^)

sad thing tim told me all the shit she was saying about Jeremy. god she rather do tim than jeremy.  god she hates her bf so what. god i hate her, i hate when ppl do things just to piss me off. I tell her to back off yesterday and what does she do, a piece of work that slut is.

Horny

Im so horny! God, i wish Jeremy was around. sigh

Jeremy Goals

I thought of being more supportive of Jeremy and his goals but at this point in time it seems useless and i dont want to lie to him. He doesnt care what I think just what everyone else does. Also, he doesnt take interest in my life. I support him having goals and being motivated in getting his goals. But why a motorcycle. Yeah there cool and people look cool on them, but there dangerous. And i dont want someone i love driving around in one expectly reckless Jeremy. Though I have to admit i would like to try it out but thats it. I just dont trust Jeremy enough to be a serious driver who wont get hurt. Even if i tell him to drop dead doesnt mean i want him too. I just wish things with him were different where i can actually talk to him about these kind of things without him freaking out saying i cant tell him what to do. I would like to talk to him about my goals but to him everything i do/say/like is stupid or retarded. And I probably wouldnt be able to cuz he's always judging me, which i probably do to him. Its an annoying cycle what he does to me I do to him then gets mad at me for doing it when he already does it to me and thats perfectly fine.

Side note:

Phone should be here today or tomorrow. I already got my new number, its not hard so I might be able to remember it.

happy

I'm happy right now at this moment in time.

Seeing Timmy in a few!!

Rejected

Well Jeremy finally decided on facebook. And it was a big fat rejection. I dont know why I excpeted different. He stays friends with skanks and people who dont even talk to him and think hes a creep. Oh w/e gotta stop caring so much about him and focus on my new relationship with Fred.

Side note:
He asked that slut Amber for Bushey's email. Why would he need a drug dealers email? sigh, but why his email? It's not like i can ask him cuz he would freak out so here i am wondering......

Need to talk to Fred asap!!!